My Early Secondary Life

Being with one of my classmates had reminded me of my secondary life in Kuching. I had 2 really good friends. One is a talented artist that I grew up with since primary school and the other one, we met in class on the first day of Form 1. We were very close together and used to do all kinds of stupid things like writing letters to each other even though we basically sat next to each other and onlining in msn to chat even though we are going to meet tomorrow in the morning. Internet was expensive that time. I remember drawing stupid comics with my childhood friend and admiring her art. The other friend is a really cute and kind girl that everyone likes.

In Form 2, we drifted apart and make new friends when we no longer sat close to each together. Except for me. All of I remember now was I really hated Form 2 and Form 3 and I'm really glad to move out of there. I was a misfit and everyone had their own cliques and group. My childhood friend still talked to me and go to canteen together with me so it was still okay. I can't really remember much as my Form 2 and Form 3 life as it is distorted by my ill feelings and memories. I remember being hurt and angry for being ignored. Maybe I was a bad person at that time or maybe I was a plain ugly duckling. I remember being jealous as other people became close to my "best" friends. I remember writing angry letters intending to give to her and in the end tearing it into pieces when she finally talks to me. I was being stupid at that time. I felt so happy when she finally talks to me that I forgot all my hurt and jealousy. I forgave her so many times for ignoring me. Maybe she was just busy ?

In Form 3, things gotten a lot worse. Once again, we are sitting quite far apart from each other. I made a few friends ( <3 Shin Lee ) but I'm always waiting and waiting for her to stop ignoring me. It's not that I didn't make the effort to talk to her. Maybe she got bored of me and preferred her new bunch of friends. They are good friends I admit. But I'm not really within their wavelength so I stay out of that clique. I have this is sour memory of sitting in the empty seat in front of her table just waiting for her to talk me. I had waited until the owner of the seat arrived. She said that she's busy studying in the beginning. But later on, she just ignored me as if I'm not there. Until now, I still can't really forgive myself ( or her ) for acting just like a fool waiting for "friend" like that. I was so happy when I finally moved to a school where friends don't ignore each other and always support each other no matter what.

We are still kinda in touch with each each. I used to visit her when I come back to Kuching but I have no need to bother her with my "bored-ness" so I don't want to go even though my parent keep on asking about her and telling me to visit her. But still I'm trying to patch things up but I'm very reluctant to do so. I have not forgiven her yet.Yesterday I saw her in facebook and chatted with her a bit. I ask her when is she going to come and visit me since she is always saying that she'll visit me one day. She said that she misses me. And in the back of my mind, I wonder if it is true or it's just pure fakery ?

My childhood friend once said to me, " I do not believe in having best friends "

I believe her now.

A Random Video About A Random Game

I know my playing sucks. But I was using the wrong pins at that time. Instead of killing them, it was healing them ! So I had to stop using Neku and concentrate on my partner instead.

End of Final Fantasy III DS

I finally finished playing FF3 DS. The final boss was easier than I expected. I beat it at level 51 ! Luckily I didn't train them up til lvl6o and lvl99 job level. It would have been an epic waste of time. My team as Sage, Devout, Summoner and Ninja. 2 dedicated healers are essential for the final boss. I would have gotten pwned so bad if I didn't have both of them casting Curaga and Curaja. Ingus the Ninja died loads of time though but I had Refia the Devout revive him.

So, what's next ?

Should I play FF6 or KH : CoM ?

Oh, and I had also finished with The World Ends With You. The ending is so awesome ! The final boss pwned me so I had to rethink my strategy and equip new pins. But it was totally worth it !

Square Enix, I <3 you

The World Ends With You

The game is simply awesome ! I love the plot and the style of its graphic. Playing that game makes me curious about the culture and places in Japan. Neku Sakuraba is a typical angst-y teenager but I totally get him. He reminds me of Sora. And his headphones thingy is so cool ! I want one ! I like playing as 2 characters at the same time. Shiki is meh but Joshua's skill is nice especially the skill where he floats in the air and released angels of destruction. The game would be so nice if I have a stylus or a Tablet.

Can't wait to play the rest of the game to find out who killed Neku.

Thank you Grace for introducing the game !