Oh, Hello Again !

I have the sudden urge to blog today, so here goes !

I've been quite stressed out recently due to recent developments. I can't really concentrate on studies at the moment but I think I can trust myself enough to know about when I should put my all into studies for the finals.

I love my friends, I really do. I'm very glad to have several friends that I share a very deep and meaningful connection with. It's hard to describe the connection but the one thing that I can describe is when you can say anything you want (provided that you're not a jerk and an asshole), you can tell them your feelings/opinions without retribution, when you truly care about them (and them, you) and lastly, when you can depend on them to protect and defend you whenever the need arises.

There are only a few people that I can trust with my whole heart (oh wow, so dramatic, but then again, I'm and always will be an idealist) in this world. To those people, I want to give a heartfelt thanks from the very bottom of my heart. You have tolerated my emotional moments, argued with me and yet, you still stick right by my side all this while. I'm sure any other person would have said, "Eff this, I'm done with you."

{On another note}

To have friends, you need to be a good friend to others. All I have been doing is helping you and yet, you have the heart to say such hurtful and horrible things to me. In my mind, I have tons of stuff that I want to say to you but I'm restraining myself from doing so. Can't you get it ? I care about you. Do you care about me and how I feel ? Must things always be about you ? Stop using my own words against me. You have been expressing your anger towards me many time before and I have been patient and took all your anger without a word but enough is enough. When it is my time to express my anger and displeasure, all I get is childish arguments and sense-less self-defense statements from you. Hide in your own world as long as you want but real life will drag you out screaming sooner or later. Why am I saying all this ? If I don't care about you, I would have said, "Eff, this I'm done with you" and just walk away.

It's your call.