My Calling

I think I have found my true calling. I have to sleep on it and think a bit. It feels so ... right.

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The Hermit Sage

Sometimes I try too hard being something that I'm not and I ended up being tired and empty. I don't understand why everyone should be always be around with people, talking, being sociable, more talking and more hanging around with other people. I know that communications are very important in life and work but sometimes I feel so tired being with people, trying to talk and create conversations. I don't really mind just sitting around, listening and not talking, basically just enjoy each others company but maybe to others, my silence is something that is awkward. People may think that I'm snobbish and stuff but I just don't have anything to say. I prefer just to listen. I'm not a talker, I'm a listener.

I tried to change my antisocial self but I ended up just being not me, faking enthusiasm just to continue the conversation.

I prefer being myself than a fake me.

I would like to be like others who have better communication skills than old antisocial me but I'm not them. They would probably be better doctors/dentist/businessman/whatever than me but I don't care. I just do whatever I'm suppose to do or work and that's it.

Sometimes, I wish I could just be alone until I'm already to come out from my cave.

If I'm ignoring you and not talking, it's not you, it's me. Please don't be mad. I just want to be alone. But I do enjoy your company. It's just that I don't like to talk.

I can totally imagine myself as an old stuffy professor just immersing himself in whatever he's doing and oblivious to his surroundings.

If I'm suddenly talkative, I'm coming out from my cave to visit and talk but if I'm suddenly quiet, I'm in my antisocial state again.

Being me is complicated.

Over and out.

Drowning myself in thoughts and music. <3

I'm a proud loner with my head held up high.

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