Life's Like That

Oh, Hello Again !

I have the sudden urge to blog today, so here goes !

I've been quite stressed out recently due to recent developments. I can't really concentrate on studies at the moment but I think I can trust myself enough to know about when I should put my all into studies for the finals.

I love my friends, I really do. I'm very glad to have several friends that I share a very deep and meaningful connection with. It's hard to describe the connection but the one thing that I can describe is when you can say anything you want (provided that you're not a jerk and an asshole), you can tell them your feelings/opinions without retribution, when you truly care about them (and them, you) and lastly, when you can depend on them to protect and defend you whenever the need arises.

There are only a few people that I can trust with my whole heart (oh wow, so dramatic, but then again, I'm and always will be an idealist) in this world. To those people, I want to give a heartfelt thanks from the very bottom of my heart. You have tolerated my emotional moments, argued with me and yet, you still stick right by my side all this while. I'm sure any other person would have said, "Eff this, I'm done with you."

{On another note}

To have friends, you need to be a good friend to others. All I have been doing is helping you and yet, you have the heart to say such hurtful and horrible things to me. In my mind, I have tons of stuff that I want to say to you but I'm restraining myself from doing so. Can't you get it ? I care about you. Do you care about me and how I feel ? Must things always be about you ? Stop using my own words against me. You have been expressing your anger towards me many time before and I have been patient and took all your anger without a word but enough is enough. When it is my time to express my anger and displeasure, all I get is childish arguments and sense-less self-defense statements from you. Hide in your own world as long as you want but real life will drag you out screaming sooner or later. Why am I saying all this ? If I don't care about you, I would have said, "Eff, this I'm done with you" and just walk away.

It's your call.

The Greatest Gift

As I was walking down the streets,
A familiar old face appeared unexpectedly,
Among the sea of nameless people.

She was looking through the window of a store,
Her eyes intent on something,
Beyond the piece of glass.

I walked passed her without her noticing me,
And then I stopped suddenly in my footsteps,
The sea of people flowed around me.

I headed back hesitantly,
Until I was right behind her,
And gave her a gentle tap on her shoulder.

With her concentration upon the object of her desire broken,
She turned her head to stare questioningly at me and said,
Who are you ?

She didn't remember the little boy in her class,
But it was hardly her fault,
It was almost ten years ago.

Mister, do I know you ?
She questioned me in that stern tone of hers,
Which I was afraid of and feared when I was a child.

John, you're useless !
John, your music is garbage !
John, you'll never be as good as others !

Sorry to take up your time ma'am,
I have a ticket to the concert but unfortunately I'll be out of town tonight,
Would you like to have it ?

Are you sure, young man ?
I'm sure the ticket is very expensive and he is a very famous violinist,
You wouldn't want to miss the concert.

I have a very urgent matter to attend tonight,
Ma'am, please do me a favour and take the ticket,
It's my pleasure.

May God bless you !
I had always wanted to attend his concert but I couldn't afford to,
Thank you very much.

Go and enjoy yourself tonight,
It's time for me to go,
Take care and thank you Mrs Harris ...

I walked away in a hurry,
While she stood there bewildered,
And I smiled to myself discreetly.

She was my music teacher,
Her harsh words were my motivation to work harder,
So that I could prove to her that she was wrong.

Gifts come in many forms,
Some pretty and beutiful,
Some ugly and painful.

The greatest gift that I had received,
Is the gift that pushed me to succeed,
And I thanked her for what I am now.

Life

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I Hate People

Why the hell does people like to do things that rude ? It pisses me off so much. When you expect something from a person, don't just walk/run off abandoning that person aside without saying anything, not even a small "thank you so much I have to go somewhere goodbye."

When I write a long message for you, I want a complete responses instead of a few measly words.

When I try my best to do something, please don't diss me for no reason at all.

I wish I can go home soon and leave this stupid place.

Again ?

How do you feel when suddenly someone decided to cut you away without any explanations ?

This is so unfair and also similar to what had happened in my past. I always know things. Don't think just because I look innocent, blur and childish with a "I don't care attitude" doesn't mean that I don't know/care about anything that is happening around me.

Before cutting me away like some useless trash, I would like to request (demand) an explanation.

Opening up to someone and exposing your heart and soul is always a bad idea. I'll not make the same mistake again.

Maiden-In-Waiting

The villages in the Kingdom had been watched over by Shield Maidens are far as anyone could remember. The Shield Maidens were said to be blessed by Goddess Tyr with the power to protect and shield the villages and its people from harm and evil hence the name “Shield Maidens.” Each Maiden-In-Waiting was chosen by the current village Maiden at the age of twelve by the Will of Goddess Tyr.

At the age of twelve, Aeyr and another girl was summoned by the village Shield Maiden to be chosen as the Maiden-In-Waiting. Aeyr’s parents were very reluctant to let her go but in the end, they relented as the Will of Goddess Tyr must not be opposed and ignored lest misfortune befall their village.

Traditionally, the Maidens-In-Waiting are isolated from the people of their village. Alone and lonely, the two girls soon became great friends even though they quarreled a lot. Under the training of the Shield Maiden, they attained the power and knowledge to shield and protect their village and its people. Through various experiments with their new-found powers, they discovered that it could also be used to protect their loved ones.

Sitting underneath their favorite tree, Aeyr who was twirling strands of her hair with her finger, said, “ I love this tree. I wish it would bear fruit soon so I can taste the delicious apples. ”

“ I wish you would try harder in exercising your powers. You know she won’t be pleased with you if you keep making her flowers die. And my pet fish, how could you ! “ berated Myr while giving Aeyr a hard pinch in the arm.

“ Owww, that hurts ! And yes, I was practicing with my powers but with your fish. Owww, stop it ! I did say that I was sorry ! “

“ Next time, don’t use my pets as your practicing material. If Goldie, my last fish dies, I’ll give you a pinch that you’ll never ever forget, “ said Myr in a menacing tone.

“ Fine, fine. I won’t do that again, “ Aeyr sighed. “ I wish I can be as good as you. I can’t even give a simple Blessing to make this tree grow faster. You’ll be a better Shield Maiden than me, that’s for sure. “

Pointing at the sky with finger, Myr exclaimed loudly, “ Aeyr, look over there at the left. Is that a Dove ? “

Brushing away dirt from her dress as she stood up, Aeyr squinted her eyes and said, “ I see a white bird. It’s probably a white crane bird or something. “

“ Look again. It’s definitely a Dove. Do you know what this means ? “ uttered Myr, her green eyes widened in fear.

Aeyr remained in silence for a few seconds and said thoughtfully, “ I recalled that Master once said that it’s a kind of omen but other than that, I remembered nothing else. “

“ You idiot ! You have not been listening attentively. The white Dove is an omen of death and bloodshed, “ Myr screamed loudly while Aeyr gasped with her mouth wide open. “ We must inform this to Master immediately ! “

Myr grabbed Aeyr’s arms with her hand firmly and ran toward a small hut which is located near the river.

“ Myr, it’s flying towards us ! Faster ! “ shouted Aeyr as she turned her head behind her back. Both of them then began to run as fast as they could while glancing at the bird fearfully.

Suddenly, Aeyr tripped over a fallen tree branch and sprained her foot. She groaned at the extreme pain, her legs sprawled on the earth.

“ Aeyr, are you alright ? You can’t run like this. I’ll have to carry you to Master, “ cried Myr in distress.

“ It’s nothing. I just sprained my foot. You can’t carry me. I’m too heavy for you, “ said Aeyr glumly while ignoring the throbbing pain at her foot. “ Go and fetch Master. “

“ But I can’t just leave you here with that bird flying around ! “

“ Look, it’s not here now. It probably got eaten by an eagle or something. Quickly, Myr. Go and fetch her, “ said Aeyr as she tried to convince her friend to leave her.

“ Fine, if you say so. I’ll give you a Blessing of Protection to keep you safe before I return with Master. “

Then, she closed her eyes, her brows furrowed in concentration and her right palm placed on Aeyr’s head. Her palm, surrounded by a soft golden aura, became increasingly warmer and warmer. Finally, she took her palm away and said, “ Done. I’ll go and find her now. Be safe. “

As Myr left Aeyr alone on the ground to search for her Master, the Dove suddenly appeared in the sky. Aeyr couldn’t do anything but stared fearfully at the Dove as it swooped down towards her at great speed like an eagle hunting its prey. Aeyr disappeared without a trace like the other three Chosen Children.

Myr will then later come back with the Master Shield Maiden, expecting to find a relieved Aeyr waiting for them. Both of them and the village people will search frantically for a missing Maiden-In-Waiting. The sole Maiden-In-Waiting will forever regret for leaving her best friend behind on that fateful day.

I’m sorry for leaving you behind