First Full Body Anime-Ish Drawing

What Would You Do

When you see someone alone,
Would you accompany him or would you ruin what little time he have for himself ?

When you see a child crying,
Would you tell him, be a man and don't cry or would you sit quietly and try to comfort him ?

When you see a dying bird on the ground,
Would you kill it out of mercy or would you leave it to die on its own ?

When you see the sky turning dark,
Would you run for cover before the rain comes or would you take a moment to admire the power of nature ?

When you see everyone's trampling on each other to get to the top,
Would you try your best to beat the others to be the first or would you wait until when everyone's gone and take your time to reach the top ?

When you see your enemy in pain and despair,
Would you think that everything that had happened to him is his punishment or would you stay with him and try to help him out ?

When you see your lover with another man,
Would you try to reconquer your lover or would you let her go in peace ?

When you see yourself in the mirror,
Would you turn away from the mirror or would you gaze into the mirror, admiring your beauty ?

Decisions, decisions and decisions.

Midnight's Winter

Workload has been increasing exponentially but as long as revisions are done as soon as possible, things should be alright.

I love the subjects although sometimes, the scientific terms can be a little mind-boggling and classes can be sleep-inducing. But I'm grateful that I don't have to ever study Maths, Chemistry and Physics for the rest of my life.

I like to draw but I was never good in drawing. But to my surprise, my drawings for anatomy turn out to be better than expected. In fact, I'm actually quite pleased with them. I found out that I can copy drawings well but I'll never be good at drawing spontaneously. Nevertheless, I'm still very happy it for the time being. Maybe in the future, I can draw better drawings.

Should I change myself if changing myself will bring me to greater heights ? Why is introverted-ness not appreciated in life ? What is wrong preferring to be alone rather than mingling with others ? I feel so sick of people who are fake, people who uses others for their own means, people who never cared for anyone except for themselves, people who ignore others because they have nothing "useful", people who pretend to be nice so that they can milk every inch of your kindness and I can state so many more other examples. Why should I socialize when people are behaving in their selfish ways ?

I admit that I'm not perfect and sometimes, I can act selfish too but if I'm able to help or return back the favour, I'll definately do so. I'm not one of those " use and dump " people. If being social means that I have to be like "them", then no thank you.

This world need lots of love. Not those kind of fake love, obsessive love, possessive love or even those boy-girl relantionship love. Have you ever had a toy, a teddy bear or a favourite blanket ? Although it's not brand new, dirty and patches of stuff are coming off and unraveling, you still love it. Maybe sometimes it had to be washed in the washing machine and dried for a few days but you're still waiting for it to return to you again, clean but basically still your old same blanket.

The world need more of that kind of love. Loving and accepting imperfections, not tolerating. Companionship in the form of enjoying each others presence, nothing more or less. Even though, ages had passed but an emotional bond can still be felt, strengthened by distance and absence and therefore, appreciating even more. Love in simple terms means just being happy, contented, comforted and joyful with the object of your love, let it be, a toy, a person, a favourite pillow or an animal. Love is never as complicated as they make it sound as. Love and keep on loving and the world may be a happier place.

Pure love is never complicated.

My Calling

I think I have found my true calling. I have to sleep on it and think a bit. It feels so ... right.

<3 You all

The Hermit Sage

Sometimes I try too hard being something that I'm not and I ended up being tired and empty. I don't understand why everyone should be always be around with people, talking, being sociable, more talking and more hanging around with other people. I know that communications are very important in life and work but sometimes I feel so tired being with people, trying to talk and create conversations. I don't really mind just sitting around, listening and not talking, basically just enjoy each others company but maybe to others, my silence is something that is awkward. People may think that I'm snobbish and stuff but I just don't have anything to say. I prefer just to listen. I'm not a talker, I'm a listener.

I tried to change my antisocial self but I ended up just being not me, faking enthusiasm just to continue the conversation.

I prefer being myself than a fake me.

I would like to be like others who have better communication skills than old antisocial me but I'm not them. They would probably be better doctors/dentist/businessman/whatever than me but I don't care. I just do whatever I'm suppose to do or work and that's it.

Sometimes, I wish I could just be alone until I'm already to come out from my cave.

If I'm ignoring you and not talking, it's not you, it's me. Please don't be mad. I just want to be alone. But I do enjoy your company. It's just that I don't like to talk.

I can totally imagine myself as an old stuffy professor just immersing himself in whatever he's doing and oblivious to his surroundings.

If I'm suddenly talkative, I'm coming out from my cave to visit and talk but if I'm suddenly quiet, I'm in my antisocial state again.

Being me is complicated.

Over and out.

Drowning myself in thoughts and music. <3

I'm a proud loner with my head held up high.

<3

Just Wanna Say That


I Love You All


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I Love My New Blog Layout

Yasmin Ahmad [July 1, 1958 - July 25, 2009]

A few days ago, I went to Audrey's blog and I saw a tribute posted by her for the late Yasmin Ahmad. There were a few videos and as usual, I clicked " play " on all the videos so that they can start loading. Unfortunately, I was sidetracked by the "Up" movie video and I closed Audrey's tab on Firefox, forgetting to watch the Youtube videos' by Yasmin Ahmad.

Today, I woke up and began my daily ritual for checking and reading blogs. I went to Audrey's blog again and loaded the videos. But this time, I was waiting for the videos to load completely.

And I watched.

I'm not ashamed to say that I cried while watching those heart-touching videos.

I remembered watching " Sepet " on one of those Astro channels with chat texts scrolling down constantly. I loved the movie but couldn't understand why the chat texts were saying that the movie is ridiculous and boring. Sure, the ending is a little... shall we say, unique but the way each and every characters managed to touch our heart is truly endearing. Every time, when we go to the movie, we only saw those Action Packed, 3D Animated ( Pixars, excluded ) and Horror movies. Those movies are exciting with lots of smokes, flashes and booms and not to mention, blood, gore and sexual content. They are what I call, instant gratification movie. You get what you want. Excellent graphic and sound effects ( including sexy women with impossibly large boobs, why oh people HAVE to focus so much on boobs ) but little to none thinking and feeling-ish. " Sepet " is a refreshing breath of clean air among those kind of movies. I really want to watch Gubra and Mukhsin but maybe later on.

After watching the videos, I went Wikipedia to search more about her. And I noticed this :

Family (2008) for the Singaporean Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports
Funeral (2009) for the Singaporean Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports

Family and Funeral are two of the titles to the videos. My favorite is Funeral. BUT Singaporean Ministry ?

And one of her movies were censored by the " Malaysian censorship authorities ". This is a quote from Wikipedia.

As Yasmin's second feature film, Sepet, Muallaf was first screened in Singapore instead of Malaysia, where it was shot. However, unlike the former, Muallaf may not be screened in Malaysian cinemas after all since the Malaysian censorship authorities had requested key scenes to be cut, thus rendering the story meaningless.

I'm sure you know what am I thinking. Singapore is more supportive of Yasmin Ahmad than Malaysia, her country of birth. This is extremely shameful ( not really an appropriate word ) to me as a Malaysian.

Rest in peace, Yasmin Ahmad.