Live Chess

“Your Queen is your only legal move. Except you’ve already moved it twelve times which means there’s over four million volts running through it. That’s why they call it Live Chess.”

Life's Like That

Oh, Hello Again !

I have the sudden urge to blog today, so here goes !

I've been quite stressed out recently due to recent developments. I can't really concentrate on studies at the moment but I think I can trust myself enough to know about when I should put my all into studies for the finals.

I love my friends, I really do. I'm very glad to have several friends that I share a very deep and meaningful connection with. It's hard to describe the connection but the one thing that I can describe is when you can say anything you want (provided that you're not a jerk and an asshole), you can tell them your feelings/opinions without retribution, when you truly care about them (and them, you) and lastly, when you can depend on them to protect and defend you whenever the need arises.

There are only a few people that I can trust with my whole heart (oh wow, so dramatic, but then again, I'm and always will be an idealist) in this world. To those people, I want to give a heartfelt thanks from the very bottom of my heart. You have tolerated my emotional moments, argued with me and yet, you still stick right by my side all this while. I'm sure any other person would have said, "Eff this, I'm done with you."

{On another note}

To have friends, you need to be a good friend to others. All I have been doing is helping you and yet, you have the heart to say such hurtful and horrible things to me. In my mind, I have tons of stuff that I want to say to you but I'm restraining myself from doing so. Can't you get it ? I care about you. Do you care about me and how I feel ? Must things always be about you ? Stop using my own words against me. You have been expressing your anger towards me many time before and I have been patient and took all your anger without a word but enough is enough. When it is my time to express my anger and displeasure, all I get is childish arguments and sense-less self-defense statements from you. Hide in your own world as long as you want but real life will drag you out screaming sooner or later. Why am I saying all this ? If I don't care about you, I would have said, "Eff, this I'm done with you" and just walk away.

It's your call.

The Greatest Gift

As I was walking down the streets,
A familiar old face appeared unexpectedly,
Among the sea of nameless people.

She was looking through the window of a store,
Her eyes intent on something,
Beyond the piece of glass.

I walked passed her without her noticing me,
And then I stopped suddenly in my footsteps,
The sea of people flowed around me.

I headed back hesitantly,
Until I was right behind her,
And gave her a gentle tap on her shoulder.

With her concentration upon the object of her desire broken,
She turned her head to stare questioningly at me and said,
Who are you ?

She didn't remember the little boy in her class,
But it was hardly her fault,
It was almost ten years ago.

Mister, do I know you ?
She questioned me in that stern tone of hers,
Which I was afraid of and feared when I was a child.

John, you're useless !
John, your music is garbage !
John, you'll never be as good as others !

Sorry to take up your time ma'am,
I have a ticket to the concert but unfortunately I'll be out of town tonight,
Would you like to have it ?

Are you sure, young man ?
I'm sure the ticket is very expensive and he is a very famous violinist,
You wouldn't want to miss the concert.

I have a very urgent matter to attend tonight,
Ma'am, please do me a favour and take the ticket,
It's my pleasure.

May God bless you !
I had always wanted to attend his concert but I couldn't afford to,
Thank you very much.

Go and enjoy yourself tonight,
It's time for me to go,
Take care and thank you Mrs Harris ...

I walked away in a hurry,
While she stood there bewildered,
And I smiled to myself discreetly.

She was my music teacher,
Her harsh words were my motivation to work harder,
So that I could prove to her that she was wrong.

Gifts come in many forms,
Some pretty and beutiful,
Some ugly and painful.

The greatest gift that I had received,
Is the gift that pushed me to succeed,
And I thanked her for what I am now.

Life

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I Hate People

Why the hell does people like to do things that rude ? It pisses me off so much. When you expect something from a person, don't just walk/run off abandoning that person aside without saying anything, not even a small "thank you so much I have to go somewhere goodbye."

When I write a long message for you, I want a complete responses instead of a few measly words.

When I try my best to do something, please don't diss me for no reason at all.

I wish I can go home soon and leave this stupid place.

Again ?

How do you feel when suddenly someone decided to cut you away without any explanations ?

This is so unfair and also similar to what had happened in my past. I always know things. Don't think just because I look innocent, blur and childish with a "I don't care attitude" doesn't mean that I don't know/care about anything that is happening around me.

Before cutting me away like some useless trash, I would like to request (demand) an explanation.

Opening up to someone and exposing your heart and soul is always a bad idea. I'll not make the same mistake again.